Halloween Eve and Spreading the Light

Well its Halloween eve night here in the UK and my thoughts turn to my evolving relationship with this time of year.

We all know halloween as a fun holiday for the kids, with great costumes and lots of trick and treating. Its a time of trickery and mirth. However it also has older connotations as a time when the veil between the worlds, the spiritual world and our material earthy home is at its thinest – thats why the children dress up and we have parties, to honour our departed ancestors and to scare the evil spirits away

Christians have always treated the season with caution with many shunning the witch costumes and having light parties instead.

Its also the Celtic New Year, Nos Calen Gaeaf another turn on the great wheel as cycles come full circle and its a time to bring in good times and light before the dark winter which in the past was hazardous because people died in the Winter

With the advent of new diseases like Covid 19 then we are perhaps returning to those times again when the winters were more deadly, and we need every celebration and ritual to keep our spirits up before potentially dark times ahead

I feel both the pagan and Christian ways of celebrating the festival are about scaring away the evil and darkness – I dont believe the old religions were about celebrating evil or the dark but were about embracing our shadows so that greater light could be brought forth for the year ahead. Playing tricks and revelry so people didn’t take themselves too seriously 🙂

So this year, in honouring the old and new in myself – I have done all the things that mark a modern festival – plenty of good food and sweets, carving a pumpkin and pumpkin soup but I also have comitted myself to spreading more light. I feel this honours all of my ancestors, of all kinds and religions and the traditions of my land. To help with this work I wrote a poem about all the little lights that we collectively are and can be in humanity – symbolised by the lighting of the pumpkin lanterns and bringing light into our homes, while we play being witches and ghouls. There is the shadows – and we honour them, but the purpose is to remember and shine our light into the darkness – scaring away all auspiciousness for the winter and year ahead.

The poem is called little Star (by Michelle Smith)

Little Star

There are many lights in the darkness

Twinkling like the stars brilliant in starkness

Some flash on and off seeminingly broke

Covered briefly by the velvet cloak

But shine once more they do

One they rediscover their briliant hue

Some of them have a brilliant rainbow aura

Reflecting all the colours of the world in awe

Some of them shoot to the earth

Trailblazing bringing light to our hearth

Whatever kind of star you are

Know you are shining and seen from afar

We cant all be as great as the sun

But the light you shine brings joy and fun

To an otherwise bleak sky

So never give up and alway try

In little deeds however small or insignificant

There is always something to do there is no cant

Twinkle Twinkle collectively we are

Your inner light is precious little star

This is a time too to remember all the witches who died defending their right to be healers and priestesses, or even just the old women who had property someone wanted, so they were accused. MANY innocent women were killed during the times of the witch crazes and we can but hope that those times never return again.

Its a time also to remember the christians also who were in their time killed and persecuted for their faith – it seems everyone has their turn at being persecuted and killed – so this brings forth another important reason for the shadow work involved in this time of year – that we never again point the finger and persecute others for their way of honouring the Divine, celebrating life, the turns in the year and honouring the dead.

Its worth remembering that MOST people try to do good in their own way and tradition and very few people are purposefully getting up to pure evil even at this time of year. Those that do will in time suffer from the karmic implications of their actions, what goes around tends to come around like most cycles and seasons, which is another reminder of the turning of the Seasonal Wheel – everything has a time and a season.

However you choose to celebrate Halloween I hope its full of Joy and merriment and a trickster sense of humour 🙂

Embodied Feminine Archetypes and the Church

A great deal of our history has been Christian and today we still live in a very Christian world – and perhaps too its right that we live in a Christian world still because Jesus is a loving positive force in the world responsible for bringing healing and reconsolidation to our world both collectively and individually. The church is often a bastian of sacredness, decency and refuge in a a challenging world.

This is not to say the church itself doesnt make mistakes because it does – but Christ remains a positive force of hope and a light in the darkness in the world today.

One of the mistakes of the church has perhaps been that its been overly patriarchal. As we know in the past women had next to no rights and were at best seen as property passed from father to husband – and it was like that in the times of Jesus too. However, Jesus was quite radical in that he had female disciples such as Mary Magdalene and the Myrrhophores – or the Holy Myrrh Bearers. These women were given radical respect and sacred responsibility. When Jesus resurrected it was to these women, the Holy Myrrh Bearers he first revealed Himself as they came to tend his body. So why then over the years has the church portrayed women in such a bad and lowly light? She has been praised as mother, but often strong women were cast as witches, burnt at the stake or her gifts marginalised instead of being celebrated. For a long time women werent allowed to be Priests, God was wholly male and the religion primarily a male affair with women to be silent in submission. Mary Magdalene Christs own disciple was cast as a whore and there is NO books in the Bible authored by her and her voice has been excluded from the gospel message.

So this is the history women face when they go to church, and there are many Patriarchial leaders still found in the church today who would supress woman or only allow her to be celebrated if she becomes “like a man” – one of the guys in the church with her femininity left out. Femininity to the church often polarises between 2 extremes of the Holy Mother of Jesus – Mary or the seductress with the apple in the garden of eden, the whole reason the world is in a mess. Church Archetypes for women include Mother, seductress, prostitute, whore, witch etc which doesnt leave much scope for feminine growth outside having and raising children and being a chaste wife to a powerful man to nulify being thought of as a prositute or witch

I practise something called Chakradance, which is a dance movement therapy which is based on Jungian psychology, chakra resonant music, dance and mandala art – and in these movement therapy spritiual practise the feminine is finally celebrated and healed from these past patriarchial influences. Yes she is celebrated as Sacred Mother in the base chakra but theres so much more to the feminine, embodied in our women. In the sacral chakra we dance the abundant empress where the woman is able to find her joy and pleasure in life – empress over her life, business and household she finds pleasure in living and doing things she enjoys – In the solar plexus chakra shes the warrior goddess – so much in our lives requires we fight for what we deserve and this is so true especially for women, where she has to fight for her right to thrive in the backdrop of patriarchy. In the Heart chakra – shes the loving healer, many women do so much healing work in the communties, not just healing the sick but bring people and famillies together and healing communities and lives that way. In the Throat chakra shes the Wild Creatix – women when living their best life are fundamentally creative, it may not just be in art, poetry dance or cooking but in other areas too deign or how they run their business. In the third eye chakra shes the awakened dreamer – this is where she dreams and creates her life how she wants it to be, including the lives of those around her – women have always been asscoiated with fate, wheras here she literally dreams the world into being. In the Crown chakra shes the Embodied Priestess – in the past if you were a priestess and a woman you were just called a witch and destroyed, but times are changing – there are now more embodied Priestesses in their community than ever before – bringing the sacred, the spiritual and divine to their communities – alleviating fear of death and making the sacred available to everyone.


So the positive female archetypes include:

Sacred Mother

Abundant Empress

Warrior Goddess

Loving Healer

Wild Creatrix

Awakened Dreamer

Embodied Priestess

You can experience all these and more on my upcoming course Chakradance – Heal Your Life (9 weeks immersion) – or my short one week long – chakradance archetypes course working on a specific archetype or issue https://swan-on-the-sea-wellness.teachable.com/

Lets help heal the feminine together and heal our lives at the same time – when the feminine rises – we all rise with her.

Swan on the Sea – Chakradance Swansea

Its been a long time since I posted anything on this site but I have been busy – not only have I been working on healing and managing my schizophrenia but I have been gathering the tools and resources to aid others with their lifes challenges too.

A long time back I mentioned Chakradance as a spiritual therapeutic practise I have practised to bring well being and healing to myself, my life and my world and I have now finally completed the training to be a facillitator and bring healing to the lives of others too through this beautiful modality.

I have a business in the works – Swan on the Sea Wellness where I will be offering chakradance ecourses (chakradance, dance movement therapy you can do in the comfort of your own home and sacred space), along with mental health mentoring and therapeutic soul arts courses.

I want to offer something of the kind of mental health service and caring I wish I had received when I was going through my crisis – I already know the arts is SO beautiful and beneficial for shifting negative states and creating a more lovely positive world. However, I also include Chakradance in this where it combines free movement dance where you can dance like nobody is watching, with really lovely spiritual ethereal guided meditations, with specialised funky music which resonates with the chakras, with creating a beautiful mandala representing the energy of your dance experience. I literally practised this when I was in hospital and surrounded by very depressing scenes, till I transformed the hospital into a dance floor where I dance in an imaginary rainforest surrounded by all my ancestors and well wishers. It really makes an an amazing transformational experience and now Im going to be running a business offering it to the world!

My website is being created as we speak and over the next few months I will be recording the videos and MP3’s to go with the courses. I wrote a poem called Swan on the Sea about my journey and mission statement to aid my soul clients wherever they may be in the world, especially those suffering from mental ill health to help them live the life they want to live, a life of passion and purpose through chakradance dance movement therapy

Swan on the Sea Business name comes from the town I live in Swansea as a city of potential and my poem I wrote about my mission. I painted a picture of a swan on the sea as the spirit of my town but it also the spirit of my business

Watch this space – cant wait to get started. As soon as the website is ready, I will post the website and I aim to get started with the online courses between February and May 2023

Swan on the Sea

I am sailing, sailing on the back of my swan on the sea

The lake ripples and breaks in hues beautiful and silvery

By the light of the moon dancing

With deep purple sky stars glancing

And shooting through the sky

I dip in the waters cold and I try

To keep afloat amid my dreams

A crystal pyramid beacons it seems

To swallow me up as I enter its ice walls

To ignite my psychic centre and it calls

Me to dream with passion, imagination my ally

Like the beautiful white bird that takes me to fly

Home with white feathers in my hand

As I return safely to the land

Through the doors of perception I see

To earthy roost my town called Swansea.

Now in everyday mundane living

That wonderous holy bird I will be giving

A place of honour in my business name

To fulfill my calling to the people

Who live near and far by every dale and steeple

For healing movement chakradance

Graceful inner work and trance

To heal all wounds with guided journeys

To beautiful places of vision keys

To find our true inner shining to be

Like a radiant swan swimming on the sea

Many years lost at sea spent I

Till I learnt the art of dreaming to see

And create to bring forth within me the trance

A vision of a future where I could dance

My way back home over the silvery waves

With my swan and grey blue cat who gave

Me companionship with many mentors

Who appeared through the fog to centre

My purpose when the waves me tossed

So many faces in the depths totems

And helpful guides the past the present tokens

And future swept before me now as I gently sail

No longer in the tempest storm but in waters where I cannot fail

Sailing sailing on the ocean grand

Very soon I will reach the land

Of sand and solid rock and ore

Where I will teach others of my time in awe

Those also lost at sea, I will reach them with my swan boat

And show them they too can dance dream and float

I love my time on the land

Where I speak to my son and take his hand

But my life now belongs to the oceans depths

And helping others there like a baby’s first steps

So many years lost at sea spent I

But now I toil purposefully till I die