Being an authentic human being

As I’ve mentioned earlier I have trained as a counsellor but due to life circumstances I’ve ended up becoming an artist and workshop/teaching assistant. I’m also a chakradancer but that’s another story.

Anyway one of the things that came up for me during training as a counsellor and something in still working on is being authentic or real.

what exactly does that mean? Well it means knowing who you are the good the bad the ugly the vulnerable the brave and being exactly who you are even in front of a wide variety of different people who MIGHT judge you.

simple! Or is it?

We all hide. We all have masks. For women it may be something as superficial as wearing makeup every day. Clothes and accessories. I’m not suggesting go naked but that it’s exactly what it can feel like to just be yourself.




So what else do we hide behind? Jobs- occupation, our work title or roles mother wife husband son. Religion christian Hindu pagan humanistic none. Lifestle choices and hobbies biker sportsman crafter. Those are all things we do, they are part of who we are but they are not us.

So what happens when we lose connection with who we are and be inauthentic. We lose sponteineity, we may feel and act a bit like robots we may pose instead of just smile. Tears may be swallowed with “I’m fine” the world turns and we let others dictate our role and who we are. In short we never LIVE.

so this I’ve decided is something I don’t want to happen to me I want to be as genuine an honest and real as i can be. I want to fufill all my roles in life but not as a robot as an authentic fresh living breathing human being.

So how to do this? Good start is expression get creative! Figure out your favourite creative hobby art writing poetry and see what comes out of the hidden locked away recessed of your heart be it good or bad the results may suprise you.

then show others…bare that part of yourself to the world and don’t care what people think…

Journal. Spend time alone and with others and observe notice yourself and what you observe of others. Write songs! Dance! Next time I feel angry be angry allow it express it (in a safe way) glory in it all… see your life as a masterpiece in technicolour with all its sucesses fears and failures and at the end id it all know what it is to have lived.

























L havnt written anything on here for quite a while but i have been busy. Ive been training as a artist!

My life is not perfect the same as anyone if their honest and reveal the hidden things in their hearts and closets but for me its a little more obvious. I have a mental health condition… its life limiting and has got me down and its meant ive had to give up work and my training as a counsellior but ive discovered the perfect tool to manage it and lifes ups and down and that is CREATIVITY.

Ive discovered that theres a place within and around me that is absolutely beautiful calm and tranquil even if it doesnt look that way at a material glance or on the surface. Its in this bountiful well that I tap into and informs my art. Ive been busy creating some good some bad art but it makes me well inside even on the darkest day.

So this blog will now document my progression as an artist. I have a name Hephzibah arts for my art and a facebook page but ill keep this page contented bumblebee.

Ill post pics of my art and progress and what happens as i bumble along :


Im a Christian or spiritual artist as the spirit is what informs my art and I couldn’t do it without Him

I’m currently doing a study on water lillies although have done lots of different work